((Not finished))

He calls me beautiful.
He calls me precious.
He tells me everything that I want to hear.
Then he leaves me wishing at the wishing well.
He was my soul, my life, my everything,
but I guess things change.
'Cause he walked out right out of the door,
and left me on the floor.
The tears hit the ground
and crash into the ocean.
He leaves me beaten and bruised,
I guess he never really cared enough to care.

Better than Google

Today, at church, my mom was talking about Doubting Tom. Thomas, that is. But what does he doubt? No, what do we doubt?

My mom always comes to me for help with her sermons. She says I am better than Google: all you have to do is type in the scripture and hit my head, then out pops illustrations for her sermons.

Last night, she used my Google powers. We had just dropped Luke off and we were on our way back home. She turned to me in the car and asked, "Laurie, what do you doubt in Jesus?" I looked at her for a second, then said, "I don't doubt Jesus."

She looked at me like she couldn't believe I have just said that. A minute or two of silence goes by when she finally asked if I was serious. "I am dead serious," I said. "I have nothing to doubt. That's Jesus, of course. I doubt the world."

"Everyone doubts the world," she said. "What do you think people doubt about Jesus?" She asked.

"I don't think it is Jesus, as much as the church," I responded.

Once again, in pure shock, she looks at me and doesn't say a word. Finally she said, "Okay. What do they doubt in the church?"

"They doubt the church family. They doubt that the church family will be there for them. The church doubts that they will make a difference in some one's life. They doubt that what they say matters. They doubt themselves, really, in the fact that they don't think that what they say will bring someone to Jesus."

So, my whole point in telling you this, is don't doubt Jesus. And don't give an unchurched person a reason to doubt the church. We as Christians have to be God's welcoming committee. We have to welcome people into the church and more importantly, into the body of Christ.

However, on the flip side, doubting is really just questioning. And anyone who really just wants to ask God questions will have a strong faith because they are seeking Him.

It's like Hide N' Seek, only He isn't hiding.

May 10

I wrote this for my mom.
Happy Mother's Day to all you mothers out there.

Please, don't kill your kid.


You are my role model, tour guide and light.
My hero, my inspiration and my sense.
You bless me with your wisdom.
You protect me when I am in need.
You are my care taker when I am sick,
And my negotiator when I am in a tight spot.
You are my Wal-Mart and my ATM.
You are my strength when I am week.
You are all that and more, Dear Mother.

05/01/09

Why is fate so cruel?
It brought me to you,
but it keeps us apart.
It gives me a taste,
then takes it away.
I always want more.
More of your hugs,
more of your love.
More of what I long for.
You are the grass under my feet,
and the clouds above my head.
You are the world I want to live in.
You are mine,
and I am yours.
We are together as one.