Suffocation ((otherwise known as Math))

A deep breath,
a sigh,
a cry.
Heavy breathing,
blury eyes,
light headed.
Twist-
turn-
fall.
Hands cover face,
knees against floor-
stomach closing in.
Gasp.
Moan.
Die.

Happily Never After

I'm tired of being an afterthought;
an idea you keep locked up in the back of your mind.
You have told me that you want me back,
but you tell me to move on and you push me away.
What is the purpose of going through this?
Getting our hopes up,
then watching them fall.
You promise me you will change,
and I promise you that I will stay,
but neither promise is kept, because neither one of us stays.
If you think I can do better,
why don't you better yourself
and become my crying shoulder?
Our lives were meant to blend,
meant to become one and fall in love,
but our stubbornness creates a wall
that we are not willing to climb over.
You're supposed to be mine,
to hold me forever.
I'm supposed to be yours,
to bring out your good side.
But my life has continued too long without you,
to suddenly be invaded by your presence once more.
We both will forever love each other,
and we will both love again,
but in the back of your mind,
I'll stay. And in the back of mine,
you.

Sean

I hear your footsteps nearing,
and I feel your presence around me.
I do not move; I wait for you.
I knoew you stand behind me,
like a stalker in the night,
scared of love and affection.
Is it truly me you run from?
Or is it your fear you run to?
You leave me cold, locked out in the rain.
I see you watching me from the outside,
contemplating on whether you should knock on my heart's door.
Only, not it is different,
I will not let you back into my life,
because I finally have control.