Teddy

When I smile, it's because I'm thinking about you.

Thinking about your joy and passion for life.
Your smile sets fire to my heart,
melting me like chocolate on a hot summers day. In the darkest of hours, you smile and hold me tight, making sure I can survive the night.
Your smile is the light at the end of the tunnel,
shinning bright for the people to see where you lead.

Suffocation ((otherwise known as Math))

A deep breath,
a sigh,
a cry.
Heavy breathing,
blury eyes,
light headed.
Twist-
turn-
fall.
Hands cover face,
knees against floor-
stomach closing in.
Gasp.
Moan.
Die.

Happily Never After

I'm tired of being an afterthought;
an idea you keep locked up in the back of your mind.
You have told me that you want me back,
but you tell me to move on and you push me away.
What is the purpose of going through this?
Getting our hopes up,
then watching them fall.
You promise me you will change,
and I promise you that I will stay,
but neither promise is kept, because neither one of us stays.
If you think I can do better,
why don't you better yourself
and become my crying shoulder?
Our lives were meant to blend,
meant to become one and fall in love,
but our stubbornness creates a wall
that we are not willing to climb over.
You're supposed to be mine,
to hold me forever.
I'm supposed to be yours,
to bring out your good side.
But my life has continued too long without you,
to suddenly be invaded by your presence once more.
We both will forever love each other,
and we will both love again,
but in the back of your mind,
I'll stay. And in the back of mine,
you.

Sean

I hear your footsteps nearing,
and I feel your presence around me.
I do not move; I wait for you.
I knoew you stand behind me,
like a stalker in the night,
scared of love and affection.
Is it truly me you run from?
Or is it your fear you run to?
You leave me cold, locked out in the rain.
I see you watching me from the outside,
contemplating on whether you should knock on my heart's door.
Only, not it is different,
I will not let you back into my life,
because I finally have control.

Hurricane Season

Though you've never been mine,
you come into my life at unexpected times
and destroy the wall I have built around me.
And after I gather the remains up,
you send your friends after me,
to knock down what you couldn't.
I prepare for the next strike,
I gather my things,
and leave my home behind.
I don't know what the future holds for me,
but with you in the back of my mind,
your love will last through hurricane seasons.

Heart and Mind Agree

My heart knows it wants your love,
It knows you are beautiful and kind,
But my mind knows you will never be mine.
I do not act with my head,
but I act with my heart,
hoping you will one day love me as I you.
My heart plays the angel on my shoulder,
who sees the good in everyone.
But my mind is the devil on the other,
telling me to move on against my will.
When my heart and mind agree,
is when we will finally be.

Barrel Wall

You hang on the wall,
next to your spouse,
Watching children play checkers.
You hang, neglected by your family,
And observed by traveling strangers.
You claimed your love for each other
On the day of your wedding,
In front of everyone you knew,
And your love stays strong to this day.
Your lifelong devotion to each other,
Is put on a pedestal in front of all eyes.
That is why, I want a love
That can be hung on Cracker Barrel’s wall.